My name is Gilbert.
i'm not someone happy
i don't really remember the first time i met you, but i knew you were a very quiet person, i tried knowing you better, and it gave me an unexpected surprise, you were a much more interesting person than i was, your life was a mystery, and it seems to shroud you everytime, but its this mystery that made me like you even more.from the time i knew you were doing it for christmas, i knew i had to make it up for my absence, so i brought you a pie that you can enjoy during the time spent inside, you always seems so quiet and left out, so i made sure i talk to you, so life won't be so lonely for you, people tell me they don't know whether you can be trusted or not, because you have that mysterious aura, but i pulled my heart and believed that you are one of a kind, no one else can be like you.when it was our turn together, you willingly became my partner, and i got to know you better, its like, you are always revealing yourself to me, and i began to know you bit by bit, we can walk together talking about ghost stories, our own relationship experiences, our family background, and our dreams in life, i still remember, so strongly, the ride on the bike, you offered a ride on the bicycle, even though i'm heavier than you, it was almost impossible, but you did it anyway, that grasp around your waist, and the many other positions we tired to fix me onto the bike, its hilarious, but i'm thankful, i will never forget this, just as i won't forget the time we almost fell off the bike, and i began running back to our room, and you rode around, circling me, and showing me how talented you are in cycling, with the sunset as the background, it was beyond paradise, it was as though i was in eden with you, running towards our future, then when we rested, you fell asleep so quickly, the lights dimmed, and it seemed as though you were glowing, i stared at your beautiful face, and realised how mesmerising you were asleep, i kept watch until i fell asleep myself, and honestly, to be sleeping by your side, it gave me a sense of security, something i had never felt before, i knew, it would soon become an addiction to watch you, so, i had to distance myself from you.even if i didn't distance myself, you had already grown further away from me, and we were no longer together anymore, i knew it would not hold any longer, so i had to tell you, that i was deeply in love with you, but i also feared that you would just run away, and ignore me, and soon i would be feeling alone again, but, being the wonderful person you are, one of a kind, you assured me that i'm not going to be lonely again, i thank you for that, i pray that you last long in this harsh and crude world, for i cannot imagine myself here anymore, if you are not here, with me. thanks, bl .